Steps to forgive

I think I've stopped dissolving. My painting has gone through as many transformations as my flighty horoscope-gemini-mood-moon-calendar! First I was too illustrative, then unbearably dark and shadowy. A frustrated brainless attack left the paintings a surface victim. Now, after today, I find the line and color are resolving themselves. In my own life I am starting to feel less the protagonist in a dramatic short story, not as much in the guilt ridden shadows, and actually, eventually, more substantial and brilliant. It took measures such as confessional tea dates with very patient girlfriends, driving across states to help a bigger cause, spending time rooted with siblings, working the gratitude list, crying salty oceans, and telling myself over and over that I forgive me. I forgive me. I didn't do it perfectly, but I can believe in more joy.

I arrived at 1:29am

6 x 6 inches acrylic on wood

Just recently I had my birth-chart prepared by Leigh Oswald. She was able, by recording and anticipating the track of the planets from the time of my birth and over the years, to give some amazing precise details about my life's path. She also gave me an acceptance and understanding of my motivations and needs as well. I highly recommend her if you are in an uncomfortable time and unsure what is going on. Some of what she told me actually helped me be kinder to myself.

I was born in the middle of the night at the first part of a new day. My mother used all the drugs the doctors would provide and says the delivery was quiet psychedelic.

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